I don't know if you've ever had moments like this, but today was truly a back to the future moment. No, I saw no hovering vehicle, mechanically programed rainstorm, or even Michael J. Fox, but I did have a moment today where I looked back, while simultaneously looking to the future, all in the same thought. I looked back and somehow saw the future. Beyond sounding a little crazy or just "off" stick with me and let me explain.

So after a great phone conversation with a friend marveling at the cool things that God has done just recently in our lives, I got up from my sunny spot on the green grass in front of the prayer garden at Fuller and walked in front of the quirky McAlister Library, Fullers very unique gathering of Theological books. It was at this moment that I was struck with the uniqueness of my own situation. I looked up at the towering palm and eucalyptus trees framing the entrance into the Garth and Library and suddenly was reminded of my first week on Fuller's campus where the very same sights I am now accustomed to seemed so very strange. My situation is kind of different in that I researched no other seminaries and barely knew anything about Fuller before I came. Through a range of crazy God events, I just knew from the big guy that I was supposed to be at Fuller. So I packed up some stuff and traveled across the country with two guy friends who just happened to be coming out to study at Fuller that same fall as well. During the first week at Fuller, I just walked around the campus in awe of the fact that God had called me here. Not only is the campus beautifully green and scenic, but also the experiences I had during my first week of classes and interactions with students confirmed vividly that this is where I was meant to go. I was just blown away that God would called me to such a cool place that fit me perfectly. I am an outdoors girl with a love for heartfelt conversations and passionate prayers with fellow JC followers. Fuller was a perfect fit for me! Today I remembered those days of awe at God's goodness to call me to a place that was abundantly more than I could have asked for. (Now some of you might think I am over exaggerating... yeah I know Fuller isn't perfect, and this I accept. However, God knew that if he was going to send me to Seminary, this was one of the only ones where I would fit into. I'm sure glad he knew what he was doing.)

It was today that I remembered his faithfulness to lead and guide into abundance miraculously and mysteriously. It was in this same moment of remembrance that I was encouraged in my glances into the future. I graduate at the end of the summer and have covenanted to serve some place internationally for two years. Basically I can go anywhere in the world except the US of A. That gives me a lot of freedom! Great!! However, right now, I have almost NO direction. You'd think by this time I should have a little direction, a calling for a particular country or people group or even type of ministry to be involved in, but I have none of these things. This could actually be quite unnerving, and to be honest, if I really think about it, it kind of is quite frightening most of the time. However, in the back to the future moment today, I realized that from looking back I can breath much easier while looking to the future, knowing that God has been faithful and he will continue to be in the next couple months that very quickly approach! Though the large hovering question mark of the future seems to be looming closer and closer each day, I can rest easy knowing that the same God who caused me to remember today, will give me another reason in the future, to look back and Praise him for what he's done!!