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We are at the end of our experience in India. It has been a journey of extreme emotions, challenges, insights, and growth. I am grateful for the experience...experiences. Jeremy and I are will be the first two to leave and therefore decided that we should do our north India travel together. We planned a twelve day journey from Kerala (southern India) to Delhi, Jaipur, Pushkar, Agra, and Calcutta back to Kerala.
We are on the eighth day of our trip and it has been both wonderful and disheartening. We left the morning of November 4th and spent our entire time traveling that day thinking about the election. It was absolutely wonderful waking up to the news that our next president will be Mr. Obama. One of my closest and dearest friends delivered her first child on the 3rd and it made my heart overflow with joy knowing that he will grow up in a country where the possible no longer seems impossible. Jeremy found ourselves on the streets of Delhi being stopped and cheered on by Indians, Belgians, Canadians, and others who expressed joy at the possibilities of our country.
There is an annual camel festival in Pushkar. There are literally thousands of camels for miles. Jeremy and I rode camels along and through the festival. It was a new experience to be on a camel outside of the Philadelphia Zoo. The adventure had me thinking about so many different things. There was the thought about the treatment of animals here compared to that back home. There was the thought about the tourism and how it has become a livelihood for so many people here but at what cost when tourists are aware that in order to get anything you have to haggle. There were others but riding a camel across a desert in a sea of men and camels you cannot possibly keep track of all of them.
We have seen the Taj Mahal, the Red Fort, and all the other must sees of the cities we have visited and while I was in awe of them all my thoughts kept going back to the children. There are so many children living and begging on the streets of north Indian cities that my heart weeps every time we venture outside. I knew that there were children forced to endure such a reality but when you have the small hand of a 5, 7, or 10 year old reaching out to you...touching your arm it becomes vividly clear. We are responsible for all children not just our own.
Today I met a 10 year old named Pooja who was bright, quick on her feet, and fascinated by my fro. Against my better judgment and Jeremy's stern look of "get your heart off the ground" I gave her 4 rupees. Now I know that the money these children get from begging never makes it to them because they have to go back and give it to some adult exploiting them but there was something in her eyes when I looked down. I had not expected to see myself looking back at me. Where would I be if no one saw the potential in me? Where would I be if I were invisible?
We are to visit Mother Teresa's Missionaries of Charity either tomorrow or the next day. She was my childhood hero and someone I aspired to be like. I wonder what truths or realities this visit will have in store for me. I cannot change the world but maybe just some corner of it? Or maybe it will tell me that the work I want to do in the States requires that there be similar work done across the globe. Who knows.
I will keep you posted.
I know I have not said or shown much about my field experience but how do you explain something that you are having a hard time to explain to yourself. Social work here is so different than social work back home. Not bad different or good different, just different.
Rajagiri Outreach Service Society (ROSS) is an agency that provides many different services to several communities throughout Kerala. Its primary function is to empower local farmers with the information, resources, and services needed to function and compete against big businesses. Along with this major endeavor they also work to strengthen communities by working to strengthen families.
My two main programs have been working with the creche/community centers and the Old Glass Colony Geriatric Medical Camp. The work with the creche has involved a lot of different things for the rural coastal communities including health and cultural presentations to youth and mothers, assisting with geriatric medical camps, and participating in the SHG (self help group) meetings for the women in the community. ROSS has 6 creche and I have seen four of them but South Puthuvyppu and Kunjattukara have been my two sites; both showing me the full range of relationships between families and their communities.
Every Thursday I go to Old Glass Colony to spend time with the seniors who come in for weekly checkups. There is a doctor and nurse that volunteer their time along with two ROSS workers and myself that facilitate this program. Spending time with this population has been amazing because I have had a chance to see the value of social interaction, emotional support, and communication on the welfare and well-being of the elderly. It has helped me to look at the role and value we place on the elderly in our society. I have enjoyed this time tremendously because it has provided consistency to my schedule but also guaranteed moments of learning and growth.
A part of the work here has been realizing that social workers in India (or maybe just Kerala) do a lot of work that falls outside the setting of their concentration/specialization and that has definitely been the case for my field experience. I have had opportunities to participate in some rather interesting things that have helped me look at the scope and potential of social work.
Here are a few of my memories.
Program for People Over 60
Me towering over one of the community members...she was tickled when she saw her picture.
Preteen helping the teacher feed the toddlers at a creche.
Youth performing a song at a cultural event.
Me visiting with the children after delivering chairs and medicine to be distributed by the teacher.
Thankam, my field liaison, and Dr. Semy inspecting the medication for dental camp.
Third and fifth year dental students providing free examinations to a coastal community; some patients had their teeth extracted that same day.
The The Heart of the Matter by the Eagles has been stuck in my head lately, "the more I learn the less I understand, all the things I thought I knew I have to learn again..." I feel like I am learning a lot about myself and my goals, the world and how I want to function within it, the views that others have about my home country but with all this learning I feel I am losing my ability to understand. Did I ever really understand myself, my goals, the world, my place within it, or how the world views my country? The more I learn the less I truly understand. I want to ask if it is okay to be lost but I am realizing that the question is unnecessary...it is okay.
The world is in a tizzy but has that not always been the case? There are those who take power and those who are given power and then there are those without power that struggle to grab hold of it. There are those with honorable intentions and those with corrupt ambitions and then there are those that just want stability. All these things have been a part of the human experience ever since humankind figured out how to make fire, tools, and to communicate. This world has never been heaven or paradise, removed from senseless suffering or pain, so with all that there is to know from history why are people still so afraid of stepping into the light? I just do not understand.
It has been interesting talking to people from India and other parts of the world about the U.S. presidential elections. Not being home for such a historical time in our country's young history saddens me but it has helped me to realize that U.S. citizens are supposed to be diplomats and ambassadors for our country. People around the world need to know and see the many faces, shades, and personalities of America. I would encourage any and all students in the upcoming years at UMB to truly consider traveling and living abroad because the interactions you will have with others will help shape your life experiences but also help shape the perceptions of the people you meet.
My admiration and respect for children has always been rooted in their sheer innocence and untainted attitudes about life. Their needs and expectations from adults are simple. I respect simplicity. Being here, in Kerala, where things are never simple because there are mixed messages, double standards, and organized chaos it is nice to come across youth that are still draped in their innocence. It is nice to spend time with children that have not become jaded by the cruelty, ignorance, and/or arrogance of adulthood. From an early age I knew I would either work with children or with animals...I chose children because they only bite when they run out of words. :)
At the end of the day it does not matter so much how many right or wrong turns you make so much as it does that you arrive safely at your destination. This is the conclusion I am reaching after my rural camp experience. Such the program planner and organizer I had an extraordinary time trying to understand the path and direction being taken by those organizing the event. But even with all the things that I would have done differently I can recognize that they were still able to forge the bonds and relationships they had intended among the campers. They also showed that life experiences are not the same for everyone but that everyone has something valuable to contribute.
Rural camp was a nine nights/ten days experince in a rural town called Maneed. One hundred fifty students accompanied by a rotating number of Rajagiri faculty all showed up for canal cleaning and rice patty field irrigation. For first year Rajagiri College students it is a requirement to participate in the program, for international students it is strongly suggested that they participate. Who are we to say no?
There were so many small things that just baffled and frustrated me that as the days progressed they all seemed enormous and overwhelmingly obvious, even if only to me. But perhaps for the sake of us all I will limit myself to one personal and one professional frustration. My biggest personal frustration was the bathroom accomodations. The girls were housed in the town's hospital on the second floor where there are no bathrooms. At night the door is locked and the gate at the bottom of the stairs is locked. So there is no way out but also no where to go if you should need to use the bathroom at night. I was able to handle sleeping on the floor although I have back and knee issues but when I have to wake someone out of their sleep and beg them to let me out to use the bathroom my ability to cope becomes strained. I have never had to ask permission to use the bathroom in a place that I was housed; it has always been a given that people should have access to a bathroom.
My professional frustration came from the misuse of time. There were several instances when there appeared to be missed opportunities for learning because all of us were sitting around waiting to be told what to do next. There was no prior planning that accounted for the possibility of rain delays or scheduling conflicts with the local government that had invited us. The idle time gave me time to recount all the small irritations that had been poking at my sanity.
The actual manual labor time, however brief or unorganized, was awesome. I enjoyed shoveling (with a tumba a form of shovel) the mud tossing it into the bucket and then hoisting it up to members of my group to be relocated. There was one day where I had finally just gotten to the point where I was determined to find a section of the canal that I could claim as mine; we were constantly on top of each other reshoveling an area a team member had already cleared. There was a space about 2.5 feet long of canal mud that was about 12 inches thick that just called out to me. What was it saying? Well, it was saying "Girl, get over here and get to work. Bend with your knees and just have fun working in the mud." So, I did. I jumped in and just started shoveling. I found my own rhythm, flow, and system. One of my group members asked if I wanted her to take over and I politely told her I was okay. I often found her just looking at me with a grin of sheer disbelief. As I started really getting into the groove of the work my team leader called us out of the canal. I attempted to avert my hearing or pretend as though I could not understand but it is difficult to do that when everyone knows your name and you have 11 people calling you. I placed my tumba down in a space that would make it easily accessible when I returned so that I could finish that second half of my work. I was really making progress.
After breakfast was over my team marched back to our site; I really did thoroughly enjoy each and every one of my teammates. When we got back to the canal I hurried on over to my little section and started at it. The same teammate as earlier asked if I needed to take rest and I told her rest time was breakfast time. She smiled and went one her way assisting the nuns (nuns are really hardcore- they are awesome!). A few minutes later our team leader came over and told me to give up the tumba and let her do the rest because I was working too hard and she did not want me to burn out. Burn out? I was just getting started! She jumped in and seemed to be having a time maneuvering the mud. The other girl walked over and said, “Ericka had a system going and was getting it done more efficiently.” Corny as it may seem that really made me feel good to know that someone appreciated the work I had done. So I coached the team leader on my technique and then left her to her own glory. When it was time to call it quits our section within our team’s section was thoroughly cleared of mud and the cement bottom was completely visible, dirty but visible.
I wished for more days like that one but they did not come. There were glimpses of them but none that made me feel more energized and exhausted at the same time. But from that day on I did have an even better rapport with my teammates and they tried harder to include me in things. I would have one of the sisters calling, “Ericka, over here there is more work over here.” But even with the joy of having established a foundation for friendships there were still things that just tickled my nerves in that annoying “I want to slap someone instead of laugh” tickle.
It finally came to a point where I woke up one day and thought, “My spirit has been broken!” If my sister was here she would have cracked up laughing because would understand that I borrowed that line from a guy trying out for American Idol. But that line just kept repeating in my thoughts. My spirit has been broken. But what part of my spirit? It was my American spirit. That part of my self that respects time, schedules, plans, organization, prioritization, and outcomes. That part of my spirit by day 7 or 8 had completely collapsed. What I was left with was the realization that I am more American than not. Those concepts that I just listed are more ingrained in me than I realized. They cannot just be turned off nor would I want them to be. I respect those that can live and function without those things.
So did rural camp do what it intended to do even if the road taken took more turns than I thought necessary? Yes. When the first year students returned to campus after a week “off” and we returned from our holiday in Goa there was a definite sense of camaraderie and sense of connectedness. There was a definite excitement to see UMB6 by the other campers that was truly genuine and vis versa. It also worked in helping me to realize that I am not the princess in the “Princess and the Pea” fairytale but I am by no means G. I. Jane. I am somewhere in the middle of those two worlds and some of the women at camp were closer to one side than the other but we were all there together respecting the fact that there are people who live with limited control over where they sleep, when they sleep, when they use the bathroom, etc.
A creche is a daycare/ community center that provides various services to the families in that particular community.
Language barriers can sometimes prevent interactions with people but a good old game of "musical chairs" will get anyone talking and ready to go.
If you do not like public speaking try speaking to a room full of middle school/ high school students in their second language...blank stares take on a whole new meaning.
You will find random colorful images of beauty and culture as you travel around Kerala. There was a parade on our way to Cherai Beach.
I always thought my heart was with children but my buddy is making me rethink some things.
Tsunami Memorial. I visited a creche that is located in a tsunami affected area; there is very little protection for that community from the ocean.
Gandhi Memorial.
Getting ready for a wedding. You will need bangles, a bindy, a saree, and heavy jewelry. We missed the actual ceremony but looked fabulous.
I am getting measured for my saree.
Jessica, Sara, Ingrid, and Caitlin
Jeremy and Sara
Caitlin and Me
What is a celebration in Kerala without a meal on a banana leaf and a banana or two?
No matter how much I try I cannot disguise the fact that I am a planner. I attempt to plan every aspect of my life and often find that I spend too much time planning and not enough time living. That was one “Ericka-ism” I listed as needing to change as I planned for India. ;) Since being here, I am trying to embrace the “no plan just live” attitude. But the other day I felt compelled to look at a calendar and plan the next few months of my life. It was while doing so that I realized I have two and a half months left in India. Before I get too focused on where I am going and forgetful of where I have been, I will take a few moments to reflect on this awesome experience. We have done a lot in such a short amount of time.
Perhaps the biggest and most meaningful part of completing field abroad is the chance to develop real connections and memories with other social workers from UMB. The time spent traveling and navigating cultural norms forces each person to think more critically about what social work means to them and what areas of study are still needed in order to become professionally competent.
Constructing a social network and support system for ourselves has proven essential in allowing us to see India in a way that might otherwise have been closed off. Field work starts the moment we walk out of our guesthouse because we are constantly working to build relationships, dispel stereotypes about the US, and create meaningful memories with everyone we have contact with. The work specific to our concentrations/specializations all vary and only provide a small window into how we are all progressing as professionals.
As I look back over all of the pictures I can see that there is something truly different about me and it is more than just my hairdos. With time my smile is broader, my shoulders more relaxed, and I am just Ericka. They show me that I want to plan programs and business ventures not every aspect of my life. I am a mother-bear that wants to make sure everyone around me feels special. But the kicker is that the pictures also show me that yoga is working; I have lost a good portion of the gut I had been trying to suck in when I first got here. :)
Happy days from India!
Our Group
Jeremy-
Tall, playful, and very much the extrovert. Lets just say he keeps things interesting. He has a lot to say and sometimes (most times) if you pay attention to him, his expressions, and words you see that he is a bit mischievous but also very insightful. He enjoys meeting people and understanding their limits/boundaries. Although he tries to assert that he is not a "gentleman" he is very much a gentle man. I appreciate his presence and am ever grateful for his instictive brotherly ways.
Ingrid-
If silly was defined as vibrant, witty, and intelligent all mixed together with humor and thoughtfulness then my word to describe Ingrid would be silly. She is super smart and fun-loving but just plan silly. The way she sees the world and her experiences in the world thus far are all so very interesting. I enjoy having her around because there is always something very real there and she seems to make everyone more at ease with themselves.
Caitlin-
The girl has dimples for days and you cannot help but feel better when she is smiling or laughing. A very passionate and assertive spirit she brings energy to every situation. She is a very loyal and loving friend to those in her close circle and takes the time to build strong relationships; her face lights up when she speaks of home, her family, and her friends. An avid cook, traveler, and shopper she is full of surprises.
Sara-
Spunky, loving, and always up for a challenge she feels and loves deeply. She is very aware of what she wants to get out of her professional life. Her thirst for adventure and new experiences is great. It is fun to listen to her stories about adventures with family and friends because each one is full of the free-spirited yet deeply loving, and playful personality.
Jessica-
I often find myself wondering if I was as well put together mentally and emotionally at 23 as she is. She is fun, generous, and down right hilarious when she wants to be. Mixed with those things is a spunky no-mess attitude that makes her both straight-forward and real. Always ready for a biscuit break she helps me to process my thoughts.
I wonder if they see these things in themselves. Do they know their potential as social workers? Do they know how they each are helping to transform my views about life and the world? Such a cool group.
 Caitlin, Jessica, Ingrid, Jeremy, me, and Sara
Bus rides here provoke some of the most interesting thoughts for me. Maybe it is being crammed into a moving vehicle so tightly that forces my mind to wander...a woman has to do something to keep from screaming. Elbows, armpits, hair belonging to five other women are pressing against every touchable surface of my person and it is getting to a point where I feel faint, frustrated, and unsure if that last sigh was mine or the woman behind me. I need serenity NOW...
Today, I was on my way to Kunjattukara Creche with a ROSS worker and four BSW students to conduct a youth celebration program. Yesterday, August 15th, was India's Independence Day and to celebrate the teacher at this creche wanted a day of activities and fun for the youth in the area. On our way there we had to take two buses and an auto. It was on the first bus that I had my mental escape.
When using US standards of wealth and poverty, I am a broke graduate student. Back home I struggle to pay my bills month to month, eat PB&Js for lunch, and constantly count my dollars. But when I stop and consider where I am, right now, and how one US dollar is equivalent to 40-42 rupees I know that there are others in the world far less fortunate. My poverty is by choice because the hope is that after I graduate I can provide a better life for myself and support those I care about. With the value our society places on our profession and the work we do I might have to work two or three jobs in order to do that. But with hard work I can live the life of my dreams. That mentality or way of looking at life circumstances has not really reached the India I have seen thus far in my trip.
Social work in India is very grassroots. It is all about trying to empower people within their communities and neighborhoods. There are so many immediate issues that grassroots movements are clearly needed but I cannot help but wonder has anyone taken the time to think beyond the current crisis. What happens when things stabilize? Is there a plan to keep the community moving forward and progressing? Are the people being served really connecting with the idea that they have the power to mobilize and change things? What can I do to help things improve for the communities I serve? My first thoughts are always program planning and youth development because that is where I heart and interests are but for the agency and communities it is teaching communicative English to youth. My thoughts then went to the fact that perhaps America has moved too far away from grassroots efforts. We still have people disconnected from services and disenfranchised by systems. How can I merge these realities into my practice back home? Is going door to door too outdated in our culture? Would people turn me away and ask that I send them an email? If someone came into my office seeking services I do not provide would I stop what I was doing to take their information so that I could seek out the help they need?
I wondered about all these things as my mind tried to keep me distracted from the wetness of a elderly woman's headwrap that had brown droppings on it...so trying not to freak out at that point. I forced my gaze out the window only to see a family of four (a husband, wife, and two small children) cruising along on a motorcycle. I cannot even fit my life into my four door Corolla, how can they fit their family on that bike?...
 Different family on a different day but you get the idea.
Jessica's birthday was this past Monday...HAPPY B-DAY Biscuit!...and to celebrate and rejuvenate our spirits the 6 of us packed ourselves up and boarded a train headed south. Our destination was simple, Kovalam Beach and then Kanyakumari. Thank goodness for birthdays and good planning.
We arrived safely in Trivandrum, the southern most district in Kerala, and was picked up by Ani ('A for apple, N for naughty, and I for idiot'...his words not mine) the manager of Silver Star Hotel. Kerala is currently in the middle of monsoon season which is the off-season for most beaches in the area and some businesses are more than willing to accommodate the needs of students on a budget. Silver Star was a nice hotel because it was not on the beach but close enough that you did not feel like you were missing the beach experience.
The German Bakery...yum! Most of us in the group have been missing our crazy American diets which include pancakes or french toast at some point for breakfast and a meal with french fries or some other potato creation. The bakery is propped in front of the beach so that you can enjoy your choice of an English, French, German, or American style breakfast while watching the waves. If you are facing the water the red and white lighthouse is to your left and nothing but water and rocks to your right. We ate most of our meals at the German Bakery but did venture to other places to get the full experience of Kovalam cuisine.
The "fruit ladies". My mom has tried to infuse the New Yorker mentality regarding strangers in me but since my days in NY it has gradually left me. It is now to the point that I cannot help but smile and say hello to someone who approaches and does not seem threatening. How could I not say hello to a woman balancing a fruit basket filled with mangos, bananas, and pineapples on her head with arms extended towards me as if we were old friends? The New Yorker in me (the little Ericka on my shoulder) said look beyond her and keep it moving but the hippie in me said to smile and greet. This skinny woman with her basket and broken English had the grip of a gentle sumo wrestler. "Hello! Hello!! How are you? What is your name?...aw yes, would you like mango or banana, Ericka?" (Mom is somewhere back home shaking her head and saying to herself when will this girl learn.) Suda, the fruit lady, would not let go of my arm as we walked until Caitlin and Jessica took our picture and until I promised to buy a banana from her later...I meant later in the trip was not sure if she meant that day. There were quite a few ladies on that beach selling fruit and for the rest of the time I did my best to avoid eye contact. Our last day on the beach we sat and soaked up the sun until it was time to load ourselves in the car. There were ladies selling fruit all around us; baskets full of fruit just dancing along the beach. "Hello! Friend. Hello!" Suda had found me. I bought two bananas...but more importantly I kept my promise.
Forging a bond. I like our group, we are learning a lot about ourselves as individuals but also getting to learn a lot about each other and our visions for our futures. We are the perfect mix of humor, intelligence, spunk, curiosity, independence, and temperance. My earlier descriptions for each member was superficial at best. I am still processing my newfound understanding of each of them but what I can gather at this point is that they are perfect reflections of their families, experiences, and dreams. Each with her/his unique perspectives and ideas but all with a profound love and commitment to the people in their lives.
Kanyakumari. The southern most tip of India is in the state of Tamilnadu, Kerala's neighbor to the east. We took a day trip to Kanyakumari because it is where the Arabian Sea, Bay of Bengal, and Indian Ocean meet. On our way there we stopped at a couple of historical sites before settling on the beach at sunset to watch the sun disappear behind the three bodies of water. We were at the southern most tip of India and had our feet in the Arabian Sea, Bay of Bengal, and Indian Ocean how cool is that?
Mountains. Ani took us to a rescue reserve park that had the backdrop of mountains...I thought nothing of that as we walked along the trail. He showed us some deer and peacocks and then asked if we would like to see a cave. We proceeded up a trail with huge steps that led to another winding trail. My intention was to keep my eyes on the person in front of me and take it one step at a time but like always the urge to see my surroundings overruled and I looked up. I was 1/3 of the way up the side of a mountain and my nerves, equilibrium, and everything in between started to panic. I ushered my group on and sat beside a boulder that blocked the view down which gave me comfort as well as allowed me to see a great portion of the area in front of me...it was beautiful. I looked up to see my peers reaching the top of the mountain and realized my reaction to stop at that particular moment was best. Jeremy and Ani are two strong men but I doubt either could walk down the side of a mountain with a 5'9" woman wrapped around their neck. If we go back, next time I will try to go a bit higher.
The Mahatma Gandhi Memorial was beautiful and even though the guard was a bit intense (to put it mildly) he conveyed the message of the memorial very well. The building was designed to reflect the three religions Gandhi worked to unify in India: Hinduism, Islam, and Catholicism. Beautifully perched in Kanyakumari the memorial houses a portion of Gandhi's remains. In the ceiling directly above the remains there is a hole that allows a beam of sunlight to shine on his memory.
This mini holiday was the right thing at the right time. I think we all needed time away from being the international students in Kalamassery and needed to spend time getting to know one another. We needed to see some of the history of the country; we were standing in temples that are 4,000 years old. We also needed to realize that where there are people there are social issues and that relaxation/luxury for one is livelihood for another.
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